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they aren't in any kind of order:


1) my baby brother is five inches taller than me and it makes me sad, because he's growing up so fast 2) i can't stand my youngest sisters; i wish i liked them but, as sad as it sounds, i just don't 3) i wish i was closer to my younger sister...i mean, we're only 18 months apart 4) i wish my dad acted towards his family the way he acts to the fans surrounding him at UGA football games 5) my stepmom gets on my very last nerve and everytime i talk to her, i literally feel part of my brain die 6) i feel so uncomfortable around my own mother and that causes me more pain than i've ever felt before (except for the day she actually left) 7) i am scared to death of letting my parents down 8) for some odd reason, pregnancy doesn't seem like such a bad idea in a year or two 9) i push people away just to see if they care enough to pull back 10) i'm terrified of how my life will turn out after he deploys 11) i've always thought of depression as a bunch of bologna; but i'm starting to believe in it 12) i wish mine was as good to me as hers is to her 13) i'm loud, carefree, and confident only to hide my lack thereof 14) medical school just doesn't seem right for me anymore...and i'm not ready to tell my parents 15) one time, i saw a guy litter in the asu parking lot so i picked up all the trash i saw around me, checked to see if his doors were unlocked, and put it all in the driver's seat of his car...i hope the lesson he learned was about littering; not leaving your car unlocked 16) if i don't get out of my house soon, i will go insane 17) the fact that my stepmom cleans everything for me makes me see her as nothing more than a maid 18) i have serious selfish issues...i like to keep people to myself 19) i brought four people together who have a greater connection with each other than i've ever had with a single one of them 20) my "new" friends aren't as great as i make them out to be 21) i miss my support group 22) i have no talents or hobbies...really, it's true...and very sad 23) i wish i was capable of staying home on the weeknights, but i just can't bring myself to do it 24) i lost one of my best friends because i was grounded for a week and so she moved on to someone else...ever since then, ive been afraid of losing my friends 25) i've already lost them 26) when georgia football season ends, i'm scared that i'll lose the only connection i have to my topher 27) i can't listen to one rap song without thinking of my best friend 28) everytime i call her my best friend, i cry, because i know that she does not call me by the same name 29) i still sleep with my buildabear everynight...even if i'm not sleeping at home 30) one thing i love about my "new" friends is that they never would ever make fat jokes; you have no idea how much they hurt me 31) i go to the gym daily now and i most definitely do not get the recommended 2,000 calories in...not even a third of that 32) trust me, i count 33) i feel so out of place in my sunday school class on sunday mornings 34) so, this one time, a guy in my sunday school harped and harped about how "Christians are called to be different and set apart" and how "drinking in public, even if you are over the age gives the image that you are blending in"...that next saturday, he showed up at a party i was at; kahlua in hand 35) re-reading these makes my stomach churn 36) i only deleted my twitter to make a statement; the night i did it, i realized how badly i overreact 37) i'm convinced that justin is going to propose at the fair in the barn where we met; i'm not totally sure; but if he did, not a shadow of doubt would cross my mind 38) i think that a certain "friend" of mine is a lying slut who likes to toy with boys' emotions and doesn't deserve the boyfriend she has now 39) when i see skinny girls put on weight, it makes me feel better about myself 40) i am surrounded by people who don't go to college and i feel awesome because i'm actually going somewhere with my life 41) i cannot cannot wait to go to the fair with the four greatest people i know...and yes, that was an invitation :) 42) i CANNOT wait for my wedding; i'm so stoked. and as of now, i KNOW my bridesmaid line-up and it's straight up ballin' 43) i feel like my life is finally coming together...idk, its weird. but now that ive worked everything out with my bestfriends and i know what i want, i'm much much happier 44) i'm an emotional rollercoaster, i've come to realize; i'm a "real piece of work" as someone so sweetly put it :) 45) i was really scared i wouldn't like my new autistic boy because i love aidan so much, but they are both two of the greatest kids i've ever met in my life 46) i'll be honest, i feel like a straight up G whenever people ask me where i work and i have the priveledge of saying "i'm a behavior therapist for autistic kids" :):):) 47) i went to my mom's for dinner last week and i saw my room which was even more bare than the last time i saw it and all of the anger i felt towards her came rushing back 48) i wish i lived with her again just so that i could have more freedom 49) i'm staying at home all night tonight and that makes me really happy 50)i want to move out...now. 51) i'm back living with mommy now and it just feels right 52) i'm obsessed with the way people's mouths move.

yeah, ill stop now haha :)